A year ago I was offered a couple of shows. One fell through because the gallery had a fire and they never recovered and I backed out of the second offer because of anxiety and depression blah blah blah.
I've done some commission work. Naughty stuff. The props, lighting and backgrounds were paid for in exchange for the work. I used an old medium format pentax camera with manual prime lenses. Another item paid for. I didn't get any money out of it but I got the staging and lighting and the satisfaction of knowing I can take photos of naked strangers without getting an erection.
It's really therapy. Some day I might share the darker stuff. lol
Thank you all for your kindness. smoochies